Saturday, January 20, 2007

Update time

Well, the nerve block I had a week and a half ago didn't work and I really felt it was a sign from God to go ahead and schedule the surgery. So, it's been scheduled. For 3/9/07. I wanted to get through February, get through Katie's birthday and then I will have the spring to recover. I felt that by summer I should be rehab'd enough to enjoy the summer. Maybe even be able to do some of the things that I haven't been able to do in a long time. Like camp and take some hikes. When I am recovered I am going to get serious about excercising once I get the go ahead from the MD. I am still walking 30 min a day, but it is very difficult. I am in so much pain that I have been a walking witch. Hey, I like that....walking witch. But I know that my family doesn't like it and I don't blame them. I have been snipping and snapping at the kids and Cheryl for no good reason. As soon as the words come out of my mouth I regret them. So, I am working on trying to be better about that. Think calming thoughts and just stop myself before the words come out. The other day I yelled at Katie for getting her pants dirty. Imagine that! A 3 year old getting her pants dirty? Poor thing. When I apologized to her later she told me, "Mom, that was 2 hours ago". Obviously she is much better about not holding onto crap than I am!

I have decided ahead of time to not get my panties in a wad about the surgery. I know that I need it and I am going to do it. It's going to hurt, recovery is going to be hard, but I know that I can do it. I just know that I am going to feel so much better than before I went into it. I know it in my heart. I will do everything they say, and I will get my life back. So, you might hear more from me as time goes on, but probably not a whole lot of navel gazing about the surgery. I have lots of planning to get to. Cheryl will take some time off, but I am going to call out the troops to help with Katie's care so that she's not just sitting in front of the TV during my recovery.

Katie's birthday is coming up! How is it that my "baby" is going to be 4!? Already? She is very excited for her Dora party that she is having. Now I just need to keep her calm until the party. And keep the guest list manageable! She keeps adding more and more people to the list! LOL!

I almost forgot to add that I managed to get an appt. at the Upstate MS Clinic on the 31st! I am so thankful to my MD for pulling whatever strings he did to get me in there. I am seeing a NP, but it gets me in the door and that is all that matters as I continue to lurch around like a drunk person!

Well, that is all for today! We are going to settle in for a cuddle and watch Cinderella.

8 comments:

Cuz Shari said...

Glad to hear your keeping your happy thoughts on top- I know it's tough to watch your tongue with family- mine have a way of bringing out the worst in me- It must have been bred in us. LOL
Prayers of strength, love, patience, healing and of course for knowledge on the md's and nurses handling you during surgery and after.
Wendy I love you and things will be GREAT after your surgery.
Sidebar: Hey I just bought a book called Understanding the healing power of GOD. Lots of scripture of healing and for specific areas of our bodies. Would you like it?
Bless God Daily,
Shari

Baitulos said...

It must be a relief just to have "decided"...that can be the toughest part. Glad to hear your outlook remains hopeful...thinking of you...

Linda D. in Seattle

Judy said...

You are THE BOMB! You are going to do so well in this, and we are all by your side. And when it is all over, you and I are going away for a Wives Weekend, hiking or something, but we are going!

J said...

Your attitude is awesome - I've no doubts that your recovery will be quick, and you'll be doing all the things you're longing to!

Anonymous said...

Good luck and prayers if you want them.

Sonya said...

Our thoughts and prayers are with you! You are sounding at peace with what is ahead, and that is a good sound. Hang in there!

Anonymous said...

I think you made the best decision, and I look forward to you getting your life back to the way you want it - I know things have been hard for so long.

By the way, I've been pulled into a game of TAG, and guess what? You are now IT - come by and check it out...

Rae said...

I'm so glad you made the decision to move forward with the surgery. I just feel like you need closure and I hope and pray this is the final step towards being pain free. Its impossible to live in pain everyday and have any significant quality of life. About snapping at the family--I spent the last year doing exactly the same. It wasn't until the pain was gone and the drugs were out of my system before I could be myself. Those drugs/pain control you Wendy. Your family understands that. Be easy on yourself. March 9th is a huge day.......somethings gotta give.......this better be it.
hugs to you friend
rae