Well, the nerve block I had a week and a half ago didn't work and I really felt it was a sign from God to go ahead and schedule the surgery. So, it's been scheduled. For 3/9/07. I wanted to get through February, get through Katie's birthday and then I will have the spring to recover. I felt that by summer I should be rehab'd enough to enjoy the summer. Maybe even be able to do some of the things that I haven't been able to do in a long time. Like camp and take some hikes. When I am recovered I am going to get serious about excercising once I get the go ahead from the MD. I am still walking 30 min a day, but it is very difficult. I am in so much pain that I have been a walking witch. Hey, I like that....walking witch. But I know that my family doesn't like it and I don't blame them. I have been snipping and snapping at the kids and Cheryl for no good reason. As soon as the words come out of my mouth I regret them. So, I am working on trying to be better about that. Think calming thoughts and just stop myself before the words come out. The other day I yelled at Katie for getting her pants dirty. Imagine that! A 3 year old getting her pants dirty? Poor thing. When I apologized to her later she told me, "Mom, that was 2 hours ago". Obviously she is much better about not holding onto crap than I am!
I have decided ahead of time to not get my panties in a wad about the surgery. I know that I need it and I am going to do it. It's going to hurt, recovery is going to be hard, but I know that I can do it. I just know that I am going to feel so much better than before I went into it. I know it in my heart. I will do everything they say, and I will get my life back. So, you might hear more from me as time goes on, but probably not a whole lot of navel gazing about the surgery. I have lots of planning to get to. Cheryl will take some time off, but I am going to call out the troops to help with Katie's care so that she's not just sitting in front of the TV during my recovery.
Katie's birthday is coming up! How is it that my "baby" is going to be 4!? Already? She is very excited for her Dora party that she is having. Now I just need to keep her calm until the party. And keep the guest list manageable! She keeps adding more and more people to the list! LOL!
I almost forgot to add that I managed to get an appt. at the Upstate MS Clinic on the 31st! I am so thankful to my MD for pulling whatever strings he did to get me in there. I am seeing a NP, but it gets me in the door and that is all that matters as I continue to lurch around like a drunk person!
Well, that is all for today! We are going to settle in for a cuddle and watch Cinderella.