Tuesday, September 05, 2006

No, you don't need to get your eyes checked

I deleted the last post and I am going to post here for people to stop sending us things. For the record, we aren't getting a new van, a used van or any other kind of vehicle. In case I was clear enough (and apparently I wasn't) in the post that I deleted, I was wishing out loud. I guess a person can't do it. So, those of you who think I have a different personality, I am sorry. What started out as some nice people helping us out at a time when we needed it, turned into a question about my honesty and integrity.

I am so sad and hurt. That even one person would think that I am lying. Do you seriously think that I want to feel this way? Do you seriously think I like to accept help from other's?

I didn't ask for one thing that was sent to us. Not ONE thing. I accepted it graciously, maybe even grudgingly. I was writing about my feelings about not being able to get my kids the things they want (not need) and people that I consider my friends wanted to go above and beyond to do those things for my kids because they love and care about us. And they also know that I would do the same for them, anytime, anywhere. Because that is the kind of person I am. I didn't write because I thought that somone would send us stuff. It was the furthest thing from my mind. In fact when I heard that some people wanted to help out, I was VERY surprised. I was not expecting it.

So, if you think I was trying to scam anyone, I am sorry. It's not who I am and those of you who know me, know this. I don't even know why I am writing this because I am sure that the people who wrote to Estelle and left me nasty comments (on the post I took down) won't read this. I am writing because I am so upset that even one person thinks that I am dishonest.

I will assume that those of you who are reading this, do know the real me. Please know that I appreciate everything you have done for me and my family. More than you will ever know.

Well, I keep rambling and deleting. I guess the bottom line is that I am just going to assume that the people who know me, know me well and that is all that matters. I don't want anyone to think that I am a bad, or lying to get things. I would never disrepect people I consider friends this way.


Lo said...

I didn't see the comments you're referring to, but I'm so sorry to hear you received them. You have enough on your plate without that kind of poison.

Jen said...

I'm here if you need an ear, though I ain't cleaning it for you :)


art-sweet said...

I know Gandksmom personally.

She is an amazing friend, a kickass mom, and in no way shape or form a mooch.

Helping her is paying it forward for sure.

Care said...

I am sorry the trolls came out of the woodwork. You don't need that right now. You will be in my thoughts and prayers as you go through the bone scan this week.

Gandksmom said...

Thanks you all. I am really down about all this. I guess I just let things bother me too much huh? The bone scan is done along with x-rays. Just waiting on the results. I have an appt. on Thursday with another MD to talk about doing a discography. Thanks for all the positive thoughts and prayers.

Kerry said...


While I don't know you personally I know you are a true person.You have a good heart. Don't let a few idiots rule how you feel. Those of us who helped helped because we wanted to. You have been through so much the last year. Tell those idiots to FOAD.

Kris said...


That's awful that people wrote terrible things. I, for one, never thought that you were asking for anything. Since when did writing your feelings on a blog turn into being a moocher. Hmmm, if that was the case, I should have had plenty of people offering hitmen to do away with Carla's ex...LOL. Keep your chin up!

Amanda said...

Well darn.. my post went with the one you deleted but it basically said (*@#&# them.. in a nice way lol. You know who truly cares about you and your family. So crap on those who are jealous or miserable. Of course my last post was much more eloquent lol... but you get my point again :) Forget it.. you are blessed so there!

Dharma said...

Wow. Get busy with my life, stop reading your blog and all sorts of stuff happens. I'm sorry I missed the post you took down, but I'm more sorry and angry that someone(s?) thought you were doing all this writing to scam folks. Damn, no one participated in the gifts you received if they didn't want to. Some, like me, didn't have anything to spare at the time and didn't contribute except to keep you and your family in my thoughts.