Dreaming

I have had 2 dreams the past 2 nights. I was pregnant in both of them and knew that there was something wrong with the baby first thing. I could feel the heart beat in my hand and when I went to have a sono, they heart never closed and was on the outside of the body. This dream continued the next night, with the baby being born, but waking before I actually saw the baby.

When I woke up this morning, I realized that these dreams symbolized a re-birth of me with my heart on the outside, no longer keeping pain and hurt inside, but feeling safe to let my feelings be known. Not the everyday Wendy that everyone knows.

Keep updated as I am going to try and write more and this is my journaling. I don't think anyone reads this anymore since so much times goes by before I write. I

I am still in pain and I think that keeps people away from listening to what I have to say. I want to try and be more introspective. Yes, I have pain everywhere. Physical, emotional and psychological. Should be an interesting ride. I am also going to try and quilt a little each day. If I remember how! LOL!

Wendy